Off Lately, I was selected for an internship program with WYA, which is a partner organization to UN. To glorify my stand on that, I was only the second Indian to have been selected for it, wherein I had an opportunity to be sent to New York as a WYA ambassador to attend a few conferences in the downtown Manhattan, presided over by some top shot diplomats from around the world and a real life opportunity to undergo a human rights training for two months in a plush city of Philippines.
From that preceding paragraph, one could always draw that the selection procedure for such a program would really have been tough but what followed and also follows in this section was even tougher for me as a human, as a student and as an ‘Engineer’ moreover.
I always believed right from the time of applying for this program, that going in for a program like this would change my life for better. I needed a leave from my college for 2.5 months to pursue that premiership program with United Nations. But I was slow on pondering on one of the worst practices in my nation which is goes by the fact that for people here it is easier to get selected for such competitive and lucrative offers , but difficult enough to get facilitators here on our side to let us go into pursuing such premiership programs. On the contrary, you will get enough discouragement, that if you have a weak hole anywhere in you that would be stuffed with enough matter to not let you think of any such thing in future. Anyways, I don’t have any such hole to take care of me for my future endeavors. So, I got the letter precisely stating to assure me of all my expenses and accommodation, in case I decided to come down to Philippines – well placed in the soft hands of my IIT graduated Dean, those very soft hands in control of that malevolent mind, the mind that devises policies and protocols to rid students like me of the development that could not be comprehensible to him in his age. A sharp reader and an IITan by the more famously given designation, he couldn’t take time perusing through and refused immediately to grant any official leave, taking in concern the tremendous opportunity and the grandeur name of UN at the world arena. No fucking good effort could persuade him.. If I have to tell the truth, I really had not time for the next few days but to curse the dean.
But today in the juxtaposition of retrospection and introspection, I find very less reasons to curse him. So, I feel better. But, since I am no more cursing him, then where has the blame shifted? To whom? ‘is what my conscience asks’……The only question that when being answered truthfully and thoughtfully, solves all my problems is that- “Why the fuck am I pursuing Engineering, when this isn’t what I wanna be doing?” And I wonder the answer is equally important and relevant to another million useless engineers of my country, who just delve into pursuing it because either they don’t know what else to pursue or they simply fall in the footsteps of other fools. In short, they have no idea of what they wanna be pursuing. Whose fault is it anyways? Is it Mine? How could a person who’s not driving in general be blamed for an accident.
The Indian education system sits on top of this shit– if you were to take my word on that. Almost every second of us doesn’t have any clear idea of what he wants to do after his/her 12th standard in school and I mean it. We have enough options but no practical estimation of the worth and information of the consequences of a particular career or interest. We all have probably quite prolifically answered the question being posed to us by our elders, since we were children which went something like this-“What do you wanna become when you grow up?” And we have often answered that in ways more intuitive than thoughtful and seems like, that somehow becomes a way of choosing our career.
Well to be loud, the change from about 15 years of continuous generalized studies to streaming in one specific field is tough enough for a 17 year old, who often ends up thinking that the opportunities are wide when you are young. It is often easier discussed than decided and as a result he often applies the formula of choosing the least obnoxious option for him, merely neglecting the more important criteria which often bug him at a later stage. I see an utter need for change, simply because I don’t want to be an engineer and I am pursuing it today.
The father of the nation once said-“Be the change you wanna see around”
Mr. Gandhi please give me some enlightenment to help me be the change to fix this quandary, because I see no way out and feel more helpless than ever.
hEn oR eGg
Candidly I have had an over doze of phrases like-"Success isn't important but significance is","Just work hard and success will follow" and so on..Even the great motivational gurus like Robin Sharma have laid emphasis on phrases like "success is important but significance is even better".
But as a perspective of a layman,practical is what,that works more often than not and the real time
examples that are set in the recent past are the most effective ways of setting one's belief in such seemingly vague concepts.
I am not an advocate of success neither do i perceive significance behind success superficial in any belittling way.
To come bluntly, as an Indian I have seen enough quandaries,turmoils all around and pandemonium and even more significantly the ever accruing poor rather extremely wretched poor in explosive numbers.
Well till the time an Indian layman remains in picture(rather lingers!!), the story always revolves around these two magical words-'Success' & 'Significance'.Always creating a catch22 alike the "Hen and Egg" story, where it's still a myth whether which one of the two existed earlier than the other.
It would always be an anachronistic anecdote and a fairly colorful one most of the times.
But the 'White and Black' cinema starts kicking off when a poor living and dwelling in slums and filthy spheres of this planet(yeppi that same planet whose considerable part is occupied in opulence) comes into picture. And now the play-the play on those two magical words, suddenly shifts and crosses those sinuous and tortuous paths,depleting a player and crushing it to non-existence.It's a plain game of a plain Jane, who doesn't seem to understand what significance mean.
Now i ask those so called 'wow' phrases - what would success mean to somebody who can't even perceive significance or may be how would significance be defined,where success by and large is undefined in their ever waning lives,where pestilences have been taking care of the physicals and pittances ruining the mentalities,where ruptures don't spread vibes and celebrations where are a mere shift of honed worries.
'I urge you to give it a serious thought'
Colors of Life
The Play on Flamboyance
For not a perversion
But for the restroration of the colors of life
In an attempt to say good bye to sordid,
In turn bringing the frenzy of the sparse cognomen of color
Mind it;
As it's an infancy lesson of greater importance;
Chanting the songs is an infant,
Not of ruptures
But has infact fallen for the aphrodisiac of the music of colors
It's not about specification
But the opalescent brightness they scatter
A toddler half a mind to acknowledge the artificiality
but surely twice a heart to discover the significance
It's an infancy lesson of greater importance;
Accounts for a lost adult's larceny of emotions
Often reminds him of his penchants
But instead of being dazzling
have turned into the dimmest of dreams
like the adultery a most talented impotent imagines,
Surely it's an infancy lesson of greater importance;
In retrospect he follows,
and finds difficult to abandon the hollows
The memoirs accost him so often
Hold him to topple
As past wrote his present
and future lays in resent;
In deliberation ,Camoufalges the obvious
Seems it's an infancy lesson of greater importance;
For him
A phantasm happiness has become,
but infancy brings a ray
that may help keep despair at bay
It's an infancy lesson of greater importance!!!
iS that tRuE inDeed
To write posts for this page, the page which by now has proved to be an antithesis to the concept of banality, had been held in abeyance for quite some time because of an association of mine with the literature and art works department of a think tank. But it comes back with an abjure to that company....
Anyways..I am extremely good at digressing through...So so So so
It's not a long ago when i spotted the physical description of a revered yet to much an extent unnoticed quotation of an XYZ(caution:he may not be a revered man himself).... and that was when i realized that the pursuit of happiness is not always running for bigger and aimed things.. the smallest of the happy moments which i would call the *photons of happiness can turn the game around by simplifying those circuitous paths,which are the paths without the influence of these photons.
weLLLL not to forget what i started with i.e what Mr.XYZ told the world..He simply said-"The best thing to steal in this world is a sleeping child's kiss" .....wow simple gratuity to all the readers of the quote...may be you could'nt have intuited the similar way,but once you realize that photon of happiness which bursts out of one who involves in such a theft of kissing,you will concede the validity of such an intuition and you would believe there is no other way you could think of it.
Anyways..I am extremely good at digressing through...So so So so
weLLLL not to forget what i started with i.e what Mr.XYZ told the world..He simply said-"The best thing to steal in this world is a sleeping child's kiss" .....wow simple gratuity to all the readers of the quote...may be you could'nt have intuited the similar way,but once you realize that photon of happiness which bursts out of one who involves in such a theft of kissing,you will concede the validity of such an intuition and you would believe there is no other way you could think of it.
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